By Lisa Spodak [email protected]
Provided by WorldNow
Week 84 Weigh In:
Change this week: +11.5 lbs
Change overall: -92.5
So. In a weird way, hitting my birthday goal was the worst thing to happen to my weight loss plan. The birthday goal was never my final goal, but I hadn’t really figured out what I was going to do post-100-pounds-lost, and that was a mistake.
The plan to have a week “off” and then get back on track didn’t really work. I felt very adrift without my scale and never quite got my routine back in order. And even though I got the scale back earlier than planned, I was pretty down on myself and had a couple more big binges that were quite evident when I weighed in this morning. I feel a little sick physically, frustrated and disappointed in myself.
On the plus side, I learned some very important things this week.
I need to feel in control.
For me, that means I need to be able to quantify everything. I need to be able to weigh myself daily and I need to journal everything I eat. Whenever I try to “wing it” a little bit or figure I’ve got the good habits in place and will automatically adhere to them, I slip.
I need to focus on goals.
Everybody kept asking me what I was going to do after losing 100 pounds. How much more did I want to lose? What was my final goal? Was I going to start drinking again? Was I still going to go to a personal trainer?
I just wanted to focus on my birthday and avoid decisions! It seemed like it would be fine to just focus vaguely on “being good.” But it wasn’t.
So last night I set out some new goals that I feel really good about:
1) By Halloween, I’ll have lost the 11.5 pounds I gained since my birthday. I really don’t think it’s going to take that long, but I wanted to be very reasonable and give myself buffer room.
2) I’m going to aim for losing 5 pounds per month. That’s an average of 1.25 pounds a week, which I think is doable. And, amazingly, that would put me at my goal of losing an additional 40 pounds next summer. I know that the way time has been flying by lately, summer will be here in a flash. And it’s almost beyond my realistic comprehension to think that I could be at my “ideal” weight by June of next year. WOW.
3) I need to get back to the gym. I’ve let other things in my life right now bump the gym in priority and I just can’t let that happen. I have to figure out how to get both a good’s night sleep and wake up early enough to work out. I was doing it before and I need to do it at again – at least four times per week.
I am excited about having a plan and a focus again. But I also know that I’m going to have to do some serious thinking between now and next summer to figure out how I’ll deal with the next step of transitioning into the murkiness of maintenance.