By Lisa Spodak [email protected]
Provided by WorldNow
Week 85 Weigh In:
Change this week: +4 lbs
Change overall: -88.5
I didn’t want to write this week. And once I decided to go ahead and write, I didn’t want to report my weight gain. And then I decided it was okay to admit it… everybody has rough patches… even me.
I’ve been really upset and frustrated for the past week as it has continued to be difficult to get back on track with my weight loss. I’ve had decent days that ended with a binge at night. I haven’t been sleeping enough, so I can’t wake up in the morning for the gym. I’m making too many exceptions with my eating and giving in to too many temptations.
I talked to a friend of mine about it last night and the one good thing that we could pinpoint was that I am upset and frustrated. In the past, when I’ve lost a lot of weight and gained it back, I haven’t really been aware of it happening. I just lost focus and interest after some kind of triggering incident or feeling and blocked out any notice of the slip backwards.
This time I am hyper-aware, and that’s a big difference. It’s giving me the confidence that I will be able to right this.
I had a really good session with my trainer last week, which, funnily enough, didn’t involve lifting a single weight!
He was the person I’d sat down with 18 months ago to plan how I was going to lose 100 pounds, so it made sense to do it again now that I’m trying to jumpstart my plan.
We talked about the kinds of exercise I should be doing and how often. I got all fired up – and then I left town for a wedding and let myself slack off.
So, now I’m back and trying to get focused and moving forward again. I’m a little torn regarding goals. On the one hand, I hate to make my weight loss about a specific event or milestone, instead of a lifestyle change – look at what happened when I hit my birthday goal! But, at the same time, that’s a really effective way to keep motivated. I’m going to keep thinking about that and figure out what to do. I have my college’s Homecoming next month, which is a convenient event to rally around! And then there’s summer… and bathing suits… which will be here before we know it!