By Lisa Spodak [email protected]
Provided by WorldNow
I’m not reporting my stats today. I’m way too embarrassed about how poorly I’ve been doing for the past few weeks and the only way I could (finally) bring myself to write again at all was to let myself off the hook a little.
I made an important realization this week – when I’m not motivated to lose weight, nothing external can make it happen. It came to me when I finally had to admit to myself that using my brother’s wedding as a goal was just not cutting it. And that was discouraging.
But the positive flip-side to that is that when I am motivated to lose weight, nothing external can stop me.
And I’ve proven that to myself over and over again. So, while I’m definitely struggling right now, and it’s been at its worst for the past month, it’s helping me to take a step back and focus on what I have already accomplished instead of what I’m having trouble with.
February 22nd was the second anniversary of the date I decided to lose 100 pounds by my 40th birthday and joined Weight Watchers online.
Two years later, I can say that I met my goal.
Two years later, even though I’ve gained some back, I am still 80 pounds down.
Two years later, I am still working towards new goals.
Two years later, I have not given up.
Those are all things I have never been able to say before.
In the past two years, I have lost and kept off more weight than I ever have before and have stuck to a path longer than I ever have before. And I’m very proud of myself for that.
As much as I really do believe that successful weight loss most effectively comes from a change in lifestyle, rather than a “diet”, I also know myself well enough to conclude that for me, I need to look at weight loss (at least in the short term) as a “project” — something I can focus on and track and think about in finite, defined terms.
So after a few weeks of half-heartedly “eating healthier” and sort of counting calories without actually journaling, I’ve committed to the eDiets New Mediterranean Diet. I’ve printed out the shopping list. I’ve printed each day of the plan. I’m checking off what I eat and writing in my substitutions — and I’ve given up my post-lunch chocolate-covered pretzels.
My plan is to follow the diet for two weeks or until it doesn’t have results for me – whichever comes second. I want it to be for a limited time but also want to make sure I give it a chance. Then, for a week, I’ll count calories and journal, but not follow a specific plan (and I can eat those chocolate-covered pretzels again!). Then, I’ll switch to the Prevention Flat Belly Diet. After two weeks of that or hitting a point where it doesn’t work for me, I’ll calorie count for a week again and then choose another plan.
I’m hoping this approach will give me the right balance of structure and flexibility that I need to keep me focused, but also feeling like I’m not giving anything up permanently.