By Lisa Spodak ([email protected])
Provided by WorldNow
Year without a scale: Week 8
Maybe I should rename this venture “Year with a massive cut-back on weighing myself.” That doesn’t have quite the same ring to it, though. I’ve been weighing myself a few times a week, which isn’t great. But, I’m trying to focus on the fact that it’s much better than what I was doing before. Baby steps, right?
I haven’t written in more than a month because I’m still having trouble finding my groove and I’m pretty sure that nobody, except maybe my mom, is really interested in hearing me whine about how losing weight is hard. And she’s not even really interested in hearing that, but at least when I write she doesn’t worry that things are so bad that I’m just curled up into a ball somewhere!
I did have a great meeting with my trainer a few weeks ago. We put together a schedule for me to follow to train with him and to go to the gym on my own. We also talked about nutrition and determined a daily goal for calories, fat, carbohydrates and protein. Now I just have to muster up enough motivation to do everything we talked about me doing!
I’m not sure exactly what the problem is. I know I’m down on myself for the weight I’ve gained back since my birthday (almost a year ago!), but I’m trying to focus on the positives. Every other time I’ve lost a significant amount of weight, I’ve gained it all back plus put on additional pounds. Every. Single. Time.
This time it’s been almost a year and I’ve managed to keep off 70% of the weight I lost. This is a huge achievement for me and I feel like the way I end up looking at it and treating it will be a defining moment: will I be a “the glass is half-full” person or a “the glass is half-empty” person?
I really, really want to be the former.
Letting myself get too discouraged about the weight I’ve gained back will just propel me into a spiral of getting upset, eating because I’m upset, getting more upset and eating more. I’ve been there before and I don’t want to be there now.
On the other hand, I don’t want to be too laissez-faire about the whole thing. I don’t want a 30-pound gain to turn into 40-pounds, or 50, or more.
I know balance is key here, I just don’t know exactly how to find it. I feel like once I do, I’ll be able to move forward.